So, I have been thinking more and more about going back to Ireland and backpacking through Europe. I have money saved up..although that's for my down payment when I am ready for a house...but realistically, I am not gonna be able to afford a house for a very long time, and I am not getting any younger.
I have never been one to march the conventional path. I wish i was....my life would probably be so much easier. And who knows, maybe one day I will be ready to settle down and get married and have kids. But that idea right now scares me because of all the things I would love to do but I am too afraid of breaking out of my comfortable situation.
I would love to start my own business, i would love to sew and design all day long. I love making and designing clothes...but I have never believed that i would be a good designer because I don't have that thing...that makes me take risks and live on the edge. I am always afraid to go into material stores in the fashion district because i don't want them to judge me.
Here's the question of the day....why am I so worried about other people's judgements? Why do I always feel the need to justify my life decisions? Why am I so afraid to jump and take a risk?
Okay people...my THP assignment for the weekend. Do one thing that scares me. I think I am gonna go to the fashion district and buy some stuff to make and design my dress for Alex and Matt's wedding...it is either that or wear my prom dress.
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