So, my name is Erin and I am absolutely miserable. I wasn't always. I mean, I have never been satisfied with my job but not in the sense that it is a horrible job and I hate it, it's not horrible and I don't hate it. My work has been very good to me and I have made wonderful friends and I am proud of my work...But I feel like I am missing something. Like there is something out there for me, I am not fulfilling my true purpose.
I took a risk last year and accepted a one year maternity leave contract and they didn't hold my old job. I knew it was a risk but I felt that I needed the change, something new and exciting. And it was a great change but the end of the contract is in less than a month and the girl is coming back. So I will be out of a job. I have been getting quite depressed at the fact that I am 30 and I feel like I have no direction or career. Then there is the thing that put me right over the top from depressed to miserable. My sister and her husband and me had this huge and horrible fight over the stupidest issue. It wasn't good....hurt feelings all around....I went from talking to my sister and the rest of my family everyday to talking to no one at all. It wasn't because I was mad at all of them...I just didn't want to drag my other family into the drama, they love both of us and it is not fair to put them in the middle. I also wanted some time to figure things out on my own.
Somehow...I have wandered off and lost my happiness. I use to be a very happy person and now I have become angry and bitter about things. I am despondent about life and I don't know how I lost my happy.
So a small idea popped into my head. What if I did one thing everyday to make me happy. What if I spent time on me. It is easy to say these things but to follow through...sometimes impossible. So what if I create something that forces me to follow through. Thus the Happiness Project was born....THP from now on.
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